I WANT TO BE WHITE

Note: this is just a fiction story. Don’t take it too much. Don’t be angry and offended. hyO ya sebenarnya saya bukan penentang kulit putih yakk, cuma saya prefer ke hal-hal yang tidak berlebihan dan menyakiti diri sendiri. Kenapa pake present tense dan banyak grammar salah? Karena saya bikinnya semau mood saya dan present tense itu paling gampang hahahha. Kapan-kapan kalau ada mood bagus saya koreksi lagi.Thanks. 

 I am a girl with many of regrets.

I was born with the skin color that  I don’t  want to have.
It is dark, brown and dirty.

I always want to have a fair skin, the white one, like a snow.

I always hate with my own skin color.

It makes me looked so ugly.

Its my biggest shame. 

           I see my mom looks so beautiful with her fair skin. She puts make up so much. Her face look brighter than her body color. Her lips are red with a bold lipstick. She wants me looked like her, to have the light skin so I can be called beautiful like her friend’s daughters. Mom wants to have a beautiful daughter, a white daughter, but I cant be that way.

            I go to school. I look around, all my friends wear bold face powder. Their body skin tone still as brown as mine, but their face looks so stunning, white and pale. All of them straighten their hair. Looks beautiful, like a broom. All of the popular girls at my school looked that way. Boys call them beautiful. They adore them. I want to be like them!! I am tired being bullied coz of my skin color. People say that I am black and dirty. Even my skin color is dark brown they call me black.

           I go home. I turn on the TV. I watch all of the advertisements offer the whitening products. All of actress look so white and beautiful. The brown actress now is white. Very beautiful.

And then I open my social media. I see my friends photos, full of editing, looks so white and beautiful. They get many likes and comments. People say them very beautiful and gorgeous. Makes me really want to know how to be white. I also want to be called beautiful. And then I see an advertisement on my account. It get so many comments. It’s a whitening product, they claim it can make our skin become white only  in 2 weeks. There are the picture before and after. The brown dirty skinned girl become white and glow. So many girls comment there to get that products. And I decide to buy that too. I transfer the money and wait the products come.

        And then I go to mall. I go to the make up side. There are too many product, almost all of them is whitening product. I don’t know which one should I buy. Then I buy the TWC powder, the side is of course  brighter than my tone. I go home very happy.

       Finally, I can go to school with bold powder. Now my face is white and I feel so proud. When I walk I see 2 foreigners. They are white, a guy and a girl. The hair is blonde.The body is tall and skinny. The nose is pointed. Perfect, Just look like a Barbie. I want to be like them!!

So I go to saloon. I straighten my hair. And I die it to blonde. I am very happy. I look like those European from behind.

      Now I use my whitening cream every night. Day by day I get my skin feel so paining. The cream peel my skin.  Its hurt but I won’t give up. I want to be beautiful!! Beautiful is pain!! I believe it will give me a pretty white skin after this all pain. But my face getting worse. Its red, its paining when I touch it. Even the sunlight in the morning hurts me so much. My friends say it’s the process, the seller of the cream also says the same, even my mom says the same.

      Finally after a long days of suffer. I wake up with the color of skin I want. Its white and pale. I like to see my face in the mirror for a long time. My white skin, my blonde hair, oh what a beautiful. But wait!! My body is still brown, my neck, my hands, my legs, all parts!! I will make it white!!